I feel that this post is very important for someone to hear. I had trouble trying to post it but here it is. Before I was a Christian, its scary to think that back then I would have died for anyone and not care. I’m not saying its bad to be protective but I literally had no regards for my life. I believe I wasn’t a threat to Satan and that looming feeling of fear wasn’t present in my life or I just didn’t notice it. I also had no one supporting me or walking with me in a Godly manner so I didn’t care if I lost my life. The last 4 years that I have been a Christian, growing my faith, I have realized that I do not have that same mentality as I once did. I care for my life, the people around me, and it’s really important for me that people know who God really is.
When I was just becoming a Christian, I noticed that anxiety, fear, hatred, anger, unforgiving has been enhanced in and around me. These feeling would become so intense that it would stop me in my tracks and I would stop reading the bible because it became too much. I would let the feeling die down and continue to read the bible and persevere through the negative thoughts I would hear. I still have to do this at times but I am learning how to protect myself everyday that passes by. I rely on God and Gods word to help me fight my battles.
Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. 11 Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the [b]wiles of the devil. 12 For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of [c]the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. 13 Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
Ephesians 6:10-13 NKJV
When I am fighting a battle or thought, I remember verses that I have memorized, pull out scripture and read it, ask my husband or friend to pray with me. I try to put on the armor of God to fight my battle but sometimes this is easier said than done. Most recently, I have been struggling with fear. Fear of speaking out my opinions, desires, being rejected, loosing people I care about, and even walking down a safe neighborhood or park. I will admit it, fear has been one of those things where I have let it rule over me BUT I do not let that stop me from speaking the truth of God or speaking out in general. You see, I know we all have the potential to let emotions, anxiety or other things rule us but I refuse to let fear win. I am determined to not let it rule over me and ruin what God has for me. So I searched out Gods word for help and He never lets me down.
6 Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the Lord your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.
Deuteronomy 31:6 (NKJV)
For months, I would not walk down the neighborhood street behind where I live. When I finally mustered up the courage to walk down the street, I refused to let fear win. I was scared (for reasons I really don’t know why because I used to walk in New York alone all the time) but I moved forward. The second time I walked it I enjoyed it so much and had so much joy because I had conquered something I was afraid of. When I am afraid, I will still do the thing that is making me have fear. I take action and pray. I will repeat the verse God has shown me until that constant voice or feeling goes away. It’s not always easy but when the fear starts to creep in this verse has brought me great comfort.
I love that I can feel God sounding me and protecting me. I know that I am still learning in my faith and I believe that each day that I spend time with God, He is showing me how to fight battles, showing me unconditional love, teaching me, and giving me understanding. It’s not always easy because there is a lot that could be feared in this world but God states that we are to be strong and to not be afraid. People are going to oppose you and there are going to be things we will want to let fear take over but that’s just apart of this journey. It’s okay to be afraid and have a healthy amount of being afraid but do not let it control you or take away your joy. Fear can act bigger than it really is and there will be fearful situations we are put in. Do not give up and be strong and courageous knowing that you can fight this battle and win!
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