As I am blogging and learning about YT, I have learned some valuable lessons. One being that people are obsessed with perfection. You have to have the perfect lighting, the perfect grammar, the perfect layout, studio, personality, wardrobe, and so on and so forth. Everything has to be perfect. But for a person like me, who already suffers from comparison and perfection at times, this can create doubt and a feeling that I’m not worth people’s time. In addition, it makes me feel devalued as a human being because I can’t afford nicer things.
But here is the thing….
I may never be perfect and I may never have a blog post go viral but I need to know that it’s OKAY to be imperfect! It’s more than okay. My goal should not to be as perfect as I can in what I am doing but to be willing to obey what God has guided me to do. To help others who may be feeling a lot like me. Flaws and all. I am human, not perfect. Of course I would love for things to look great but my inability to look amazing shouldn’t stop me from doing what God has called me to do. It’s not a valid reason to stop and sure I get discouraged because people do not follow me because of a few grammatical errooooorsssss and I’m not the typical social influencer.
I have to be okay with not being perfect and being willing to just be me. I need to know to my core that Jesus loves me and knows I am going to mess up. That’s why he died on the cross. Not to excuse my sin but to set me free from it. That I do not need to stay in bondage of my perfectionism and my insecurities. If I do not take him up in this then the act of dying becomes purposeless. I feel there are way more people out there like me than the social media influencer, who by the way, are probably in debt and emotionally miserable because they are trying to match someone higher than them or something they are not. That’s not success and no one should have to fake it to make it by putting themselves into debt. I only hope that if they show the messy imperfections that they are met with grace and understanding.