Okay so I’m tired all the time. I wake up and I’m…you guessed it…exhausted. It’s getting frustrating because my mind is not tired. When I wake up in the morning my mind wants to be happy, to do the dishes, the laundry, to play “cake” with my kids or “baby guitar” but my body just says “no, go back to bed.” I literally have to make my eyes open to be able to wake up. When I do wake up I feel sluggish and ready to crawl back into bed for another 8 hours. I also am doing this thing where I’ll emerge myself into a task full force. When I do this I won’t stop because I know that if I do I’ll feel the impact of being tired..but then when I do stop I’m dizzy so I will rest as much as I can. I call this my “block out” mode. I just keep going and going like the energizer bunny, not feeling, not stopping until I’m done.
My sleep could be better too. One tactic I take to a more peaceful sleep is to fall asleep before my husband does so I don’t have to hear him breath like he is breathing nervously into a microphone 🤪😅. (Love you hubby)
And praying..tons of prayer for sleep!!
I know that my situation could be much worse and I am thankful that I am relatively healthy besides the EBV and chronic fatigue. However, the chronic fatigue along side some depression..is frustrating. The one thing I’m trying to do…but don’t always do well…is to teach my kids how to handle hard, painful and difficult situations. That there is a choice to make to be happy. So yes this season is frustrating but I am happy for this season because it’s allowing me to grow: emotionally and spiritually.